I Will Destroy You!

Okay, so it's ethics bowl time, come tomorrow afternoon. This is not one that I am particularly looking forward to, as it will be the first bowl where I don't have a crew of hardened philosophy vets to back me up, and just hang around with in general. Frustrating, that. At any rate, I hope it goes well. Hell, I don't have any real drinking buddies to hang out with this time.

Yesterday was coffee with the woman. It was...interesting. One thing that I have realized is that she is completely, totally, and utterly oblivious to the way in which she affects my life. For instance, she mentioned how she liked the way I am "angry, bitter, and sarcastic." It's like punching a guy in the face, and telling him, "I like the way you're all black and blue around the eye, and that blood gushing out of your temple? Wow! It's so distinctively you! I wouldn't have you any other way!" Well thanks alot! This is some of that good ol' fashioned bitter and cynical sarcasm that you seem to like so much! The weird thing was that other than this minor awkwardness, it was actually quite pleasant. The thing was, this remark just stung so much that as I was driving home, I couldn't help but brood over it, and replay it within my mind. At any rate, it fed a burning rage within me.

After dinner that evening, I went over to Ryan and Cassie's for some BESM/RIFTs. It was quite good. The chance to play with them and Trevor helped take my mind off the inferno brewing within. Let's just say that giant Russian Cyborgs are good.

Today was absolutely shitty, though. It started off with me being late to Ideas. We weren't really doing much, so it wasn't really a loss, but it only went downhill from there. I then decided to spend some time writing some of my papers, namely my 60's research paper and my Enlightenment paper. At 11, I was to meet with my partner for stage combat to practice. He didn't show, damn the man. So there I was, waiting, and thinking, I just wasted time that I could have used to do something productive, but you just had to forget. So I went and got lunch, and then headed off to LS. It wasn't horrid, but it wasn't particularly memorable, either. After that, it was more paper-writing. I then went home, got dinner, and went to Bible study...only to discover that I had been stood up once again. Twice in one day. Seriously, this pisses me off. I called the kids up and told them that there was Bible study. I got at least one confirmed "Yes, I'll be there" and still nobody showed. Seriously, if they aren't going to be there, they should just fucking say so. It's not like they're going to hurt my feelings. I would rather know ahead of time that I don't have to show up, and then actually do something productive besides wait for people who aren't going to be there. My wrath at this point is palpable, and utterly star-destroying. The folks at the ethics bowl won't know what hit them. The power of the Dark Side is strong in me, and I plan to give them the logical smack-down that many of them (I'm talking about you, Sophists) so richly deserve.

Conclusion: Will is angry. Pissed. Miffed. Put out. Raging. Wrathful. Irked. Annoyed. Ticked off. Cheesed. And everything in between. Seriously, no patience for crap right now.